Cool Hand Luke

It’s been a while? How are you? No, you can be honest with me.  Doesn’t it feel good to get that off your chest?

Before I continue on with my usual ramblings about drummers that rule, records that are awesome, and stupid things that happened to me, I thought I would have a time of cyber confession with you.

Here are my confessions, both serious and trivial:

I do not personally have a Facebook, MySpace, or Twitter account, though Cool Hand Luke does.

I say that I don’t have any of these social networking accounts because I don’t have time and I don’t want the drama that I often see associated with said accounts—this is partially true.

The other half of it is that I have an irrational fear of technology. I’m old fashioned. I miss the days when Gmail and text messages were the newest technology. For that matter, I miss the days when people bought CD’s instead of mp3’s.

 I would rather call you than email you.  I think it’s much faster to ask you a question and get an immediate response than to wait three days for you to get around to emailing me back. Old fashioned.

I didn’t grow up with a computer in my house and I never had one until a few years ago. I feel I missed the boat somehow and that it’s too late for me to catch up—even though I know that isn’t true. 

If I wasn’t so afraid of technology, recording would be much simpler. I could do a lot of it myself instead of paying other people to do it.  (No offense to the people I pay.) I’m trying to teach myself, but again, the fear thing is still there.

It is really a big deal that I started a blog, if that’s what this is. I have never blogged, kept an online journal, or anything like that.

There are two main reasons that I started a Tumblr.

1)  I discovered that Frodus (who haven’t really been an active band in 10 years) has a Tumblr. Frodus is awesome; therefore I should have one, too.

2)  For the past year and some change, I worked an office job in a corporate setting. I finished my work by 11 or 12 every day and I had to find ways to kill time till 4:30. Because it was corporate, there were all kinds of internet filters so that I couldn’t check my mail, watch videos, get on Facebook, etc. The way I spent my time was reading online books (mostly Tolstoy short stories and Confessions by St. Augustine), reading Wikipedia (mostly about composers), and finding band webpages. That’s how I found Frodus’ Tumblr, which is how I found out that the corporate filter had not caught Tumblr. So I started one and filled it full of random somethings for your reading pleasure.

I am one of the most insecure people I know.  Fear often dictates what I do and do not do—especially in regards to music. I have big ideas all the time but I only execute the safe ones. I’m trying to get over that. Mistakes I’ve made in the past hang over my head and I’m so scared of repeating them that I don’t try anything at all. I know the truth of the gospel, but I still believe these lies. Help me, Lord Jesus.

I am horrible at self-promotion, which is exactly what it takes to make it as an independent musician these days. I am not at all sure what the line is between boasting in my works to make myself look good and being responsible with what I’ve been given.

I really, really like Confessions of A Broken Heart by Lindsay Lohan. I found that out accidentally when I was supposed to be making fun of it. Oops.

I also like black licorice. I know you think it’s gross, but I happen to love it.

I’m a slow reader. I don’t mean that I have to sound out words or can’t comprehend what I’m reading. It just takes me longer to read a page than most people.

Now that I have confessed these things, we can move on. I’ll talk to you soon, okay? Hang in there.  Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?